Yup. 4.0! Finally, after 5 semesters, my GPA is back to 4.0. Which puts my cGPA at a final point of 3.69. Not exactly satisfied, but glad i did well enough to pull my cGPA up a little. Just a little, but better than nothing. :) 

So, now that poly's over...what's next?

Fast forwarding my life story a little ------> I got accepted by NTU! Coming end-July, i'll be starting my university life in the School of Biological Sciences, NTU. Biological Sciences...not vet. Haha oh well, i hope i won't regret my choice. 

Applied for hall stay with Sabrina! Hope we'll get allocated to a good hall (not the old, icky ones with lizards and cockroaches everywhere ugh eww), and i hope we'll get along well as roommates too. People always say that staying together is a different story; i'd agree, actually. Because it's only then that you'll see the other party's habits and real personality in that sense. But judging from Sab's personality (from what i know, i mean), i guess nothing really bad could possibly happen? I hope i'll be a good roommate to her too HAHA.

I don't know when i'll update again, really lazy to do so haha and now that i don't have a reason to post again, i might not even post anymore. This post was done just because i wanted to upload my final semester results, just to make things whole. Since i had been posting my results for the past five semesters. 

Oh well. Goodnight!

P.S

Since i've ever mentioned long long long long long time ago about my love for SHINee, maybe i should give an update on my Kpop craze status HAHA. Latest update would be that i've gotten into BTS lately, like since January, and oh my god i can't stop. But shan't go all fangirl mode over here (too lazy to anyway), but i'll end off with a few pictures of them.

I'm on a 5 month-long internship in Ocean Park, Hong Kong. In fact, i've alr been here for 3 weeks. I kinda wanted to blog about this before i came over, but i kept forgetting (i mean come on, obviously i don't bother much about updating this ancient blog anymore haha) until a few days back. 

And honestly, the only reason why i remembered is because i received my sem 3.3 exam results, and i've been updating my exam results here all along so yeah that led me to remembering how i wanted to blog about my HK trip hahaha. 

So these 3 weeks had been pretty fine i guess? Stuck here with Wen Nam haha honestly there had been some things about him that ticked me off (and i have ranted to QQ and Amos and Claire and Manqin about it) but i guess i'll just have to endure it cos it's just him and me for the rest of these 5 months. 

So. Back to what i wanted to talk about: my exam results. Sighhhhh.

AY2015/2016 April Semester (Main)Grade Point Average: 3.38

Subject Code	Subject Name	CU	Grade
ACS3001	Communication Skills for Applied Science 4	2	B
APH2006	Basic Pharmacology	4	B
AVT2004	Veterinary Practice Management	2	B
AVT3002	Surgical and Anaesthetic Principles	4	B+
AVT3003	Laboratory Animal Science and Technology	4	Distinction
GCD1003	Applied Principles for Effective Living 3	1	Pass

The first thing that caught my eye was of course, the odd thing in the list of results: DISTINCTION. YES!!!!!!! DISTINCTION HAHA LIKE FINALLY AFTER SO LONG I FINALLY SEE THIS WORD ON MY RESULTS. And then i slowly looked through my other results. Honestly, seeing so many Bs weren't very surprising to me anymore considering how i had all Bs the last semester too. However, there was one subject which i was really disappointed in. BPHARM.

I kinda aimed for an A or Distinction. Pretty much because Manqin and Tinghan took BPHARM the previous sem and they had dist and A respectively. So i thought, i can do this too. It's something possible. But to my disappointment, i attained a B. Not even a B+..

Another thing was that i really wanted to pull my cGPA up this semester, because it's the last exam i would be taking. The next result i would be looking at is my Major Project, and to be honest i'm not too confident in this. I mean, it's a project, and there's a poster presentation at the end. It's just everything i'm not good in all put together. And now my cGPA's at 3.66. Hah.

My brother's cGPA was 3.66 if i'm not wrong. And at that point in time (in Year 1 or 2), i was like, i have to do better than him. I CAN do better than him. Afterall, my results had always been better than him. But now...such disappointment..

Ohwell. Enough of this i guess. Time to put it behind me like i always do. I should be heading for dinner now haha i haven't had breakfast or lunch today, new record LOL. Wanted to have brunch but i forgot so yeahhhhhhhh. And after dinner i shall explore this mall haha IT IS HUGE OMG. I glanced at the directory and i saw "13F". THIRTEEN FLOORS?!?!?! But i'm pretty sure there are some inaccessible floors for the office people. Hahaha ohwell, still alot of shops to conquer! 

Oh and i forgot to mention, i am alone. Heheh yes alone, without Wennam. Cos thanks to QQ, he declared today Independence Day for me haha. Don't get me wrong, it's not ALL THAT BAD to hang out with Wennam. But i mean we're gonna see each other every day for 5 months, we deserve to have a few days of independence out of these 20 weeks here right? So today's my first. Hahaha i didn't venture out too far from home (Sham Shui Po) so i could stay out later and get home faster.

Alright time to head for dinner. After this song (Sixty Five, by Gentle Bones) that i'm listening to in Spotify now. Cos it's nice hehe.

My cGPA has dropped to 3.71. No more As..sigh. Some of my friends actually managed to pull up their GPA this time, i don't know how. I guess i just suck. I know, i can't compare to them cos some of their GPA's lower than mine. But still,  dropping is still a bad thing, regardless of how high your GPA is. I'm seriously dropping at a consistent rate, 0.1 each time.. sigh so much for "i shall get at least 3.8 by the end of my poly years". I'm not even at Year 3.2 and i'm alr below 3.8. 

Should i forgo everything and just focus on my studies from now on? Like when my friends wanna go out to eat, i just tell them i'm staying in school to study, and when everyone heads home i just stay in school to study?

Will i go crazy from that? 

Sigh will i even be able to do that if i tried? /: 

Ohwell. Heading out w parents real soon so i'm just gonna end here. Goodbye.

It's this time of the year again... my results.

AY2014/2015 April Semester (Main)Grade Point Average: 3.65

Subject Code	Subject Name	CU	Grade
ABM2009	Fundamentals of Pathology	4	B+
ABM2010	Applied Immunology	3	B+
ABT2007	Molecular Genetics	5	B+
ABT2014	Metabolic Biochemistry	4	A
AVT2005	Animal Care and Management	5	B+
DVC1905	Colour & Composition	3	A
GCD1002	Applied Principles for Effective Living 2	1	Pass

As you can see, i have dropped once again...and by even more this time sigh.

4.0 to 3.92 to 3.83.. I still have 3 more semesters to go, if this continues (say i drop by 0.08 each time), i'm gonna be at 3.59..where is 3.59 gonna bring me to sia...

I feel like i've worked SO hard this semester, i've lost so much sleep as compared to the previous sem. But why am i stilll doing this badly..? Does that mean i'm gonna have no sleep by the next semester? 

Manqin and Tinghan didn't drop as much as i did . But i don't know if i can compare w them this way, because we're of different courses. I have no idea how my classmates did, i didn't ask QQ or Wennam how they did. Antonio said he's not happy with his results either, but i don't know how well/badly he actually did. I feel like i want to know so i can comfort myself if they're doing worse too, but if they did well it's just gonna backfire...

Who knows what 2.2 will be. But i do hope it'll be much better.

So yeah i kinda predicted right about CSAS ): I mean even though i predicted it, it still hurts to see a B /: And my Sociology...sigh /: But then again i knew i wouldn't have done Sociology better than Jap luh haha considering i scored nearly full marks for both written papers and did fairly well (imo) for the acting thing.

Soooo my cumulative GPA has dropped from a 4.0 to 3.92...okay la i guess at least it's still a 3.9? I can't expect too much from myself right. At least my HPI AAP BMic and CellB got A though!! Thank god :D 

Well just hope to do around this well or even better the next time i guess. Gotta work hard!

Currently, Aviary's being split into the JC people (including Sab i guess), NP/NYP people, and TP people. Of course, i'm under the TP people. I don't know how it happened, but it just became like that.

JC: Sam, Sophie, Yanhui, Sab

NP/NYP: San, Gordon, Dio

TP: Claire, Manqin, Me.

-FILLS UP GAPS TO MAKE BLOG POST LONGER-

Manqin and Claire says it's normal for our clique to split up like that, because it's easier to arrange gatherings when we're in the same school. I guess i have to agree, cos it does makes sense, but on the other hand i feel terrible when Aviary becomes like that. Leaving the JC people aside (because they're the more sui bian people plus they're the ones who have a larger holiday difference than the rest of us), i feel like us TP people are distancing ourselves from the NP/NYP people deliberately..

It alll started with Sandra's (possible) lie to a few of us, which i shall not talk about. Obviously we wouldn't' feel too happy about it, and Manqin and Claire felt the most angry/upset about it (i guess). Dio was kinda puzzled as well, but she's probably over it long ago. What about me? Honestly, i probably had let go of it a long time ago too, but because Manqin and Claire are still harping on it, i naturally still have that "betrayed" feeling inside at times. I'm not blaming Manqin and Claire for this, please don't misunderstand, but i feel like..we should all just let it go. It's been so long already - at least half a year has passed, if i'm not wrong. 

My blog's so dead and lifeless i feel like i should just post something crazy like this once in a while so that it looks more colourful hahahahaha

Idk but ever since then, Manqin and Claire have been getting frustrated at Aviary (in a way) pretty easily..like when we're trying to plan an Aviary outing and no one replies, they start ranting in the TP chat like "Next time i'm not gonna suggest _____ anymore" and stuff like that. It's true that people don't really reply luh, i know it's understandable to get frustrated, but still...sometimes when the other people say something, they wouldn't respond either, so isn't it the same thing..?

Manqin criticizes almost every single photo Sandra posts on Instagram. 

"I see her say she poor i feel angry." 

"She look like posing for advertisement." 

"She and her boyfriend ah, must maintain abit." 

"See, she's the kind who takes photos and puts some deep quote as the caption."

Hello to anyone (that i know) who still reads my blog! It's 7 years old this 2014 hehehe omg :D

It's like, the lying incident has caused her to hate Sandra for eternity. I just feel kinda frustrated and bad for Sandra at the same time whenever Manqin does that. I mean, shouldn't you just let it be? Let the user post whatever she wants, right..? If you don't like it, don't tap the like button. If you do, then give it a like if you want. Isn't that how Instagram's supposed to be?

Maybe i'm just being too sensitive again. Maybe i shouldn't bother. But what i'm afraid is that Aviary would split up for real because of such stuff. I don't want Aviary to split up like that. I've already experienced Chenting and Shane quarrelling and Shara and QQ having tension between each other, and in both cases i was the one in between. I hated being in that postition cos no matter what you do, you must think so carefully in case you hurt either of their feelings. So i don't want Aviary to encounter such a problem as well.

Most of the times, the three of us would hang out together. Even recently, we went to watch Pompeii together. During the time of our gathering, i wouldn't really feel guilty for not asking the rest and stuff. The most i'd think of is just to invite Dio, cos Dio's like the next closest to us compared to the rest. But i wouldn't think of asking the NP/NYP people. But then when the NP/NYP people post a photo of Instagram showing that THEY had a gathering together without us knowing, i feel left out. Yes, i feel left out.

You must be thinking, wtf Cheryl you're doing what you don't want others to do and now you're feeling upset over it? I KNOW, i feel so stupid too /: Such irony, right? Sigh. I don't know, it just feels so complicated. Aviary used to buy a shared present amongst ALL of us to another Aviary member. But now, it's always the TP people sharing a gift, and then idk about the rest of them. Dio would be like "walao bojio sia!!" But ite we still buy the gift amongst the three of us. And then when it's either of our birthday, two of us would buy a gift for that one of us. It's like we're no longer a part of Aviary, we're just the TP people..

Is this being too crazy? hahahahaha idk oh well it's not like i'm gonna do this every single post so ohwell WHATEVER :b

But right now, i feel like if i ask Manqin and Claire to stop hating on Sandra, it wouldn't work. I get this feeling like i'd get ostracized by the two of them if i show that i've forgiven Sandra..i know, it sounds crazy to think Manqin and Claire would ever do that, but i just can't help it... What if it DOES happen? I'd feel really lonely, because the NP/NYP people would be "too far", the JC people have different holidays and stuff, and then the TP people would just consist of Manqin and Claire.

Idk now it sounds too crazy to happen. But stilll. Ahhhhhhhh i don't knowwwwww. I guess i'd try my luck someday soon regarding the Sandra thing. As in to tell them to just let it go. I hope the worst scenario that i've thought about wouldn't come true though. I won't be able to take it i swear. I'd probably just break down or go berserk or something.

P.S

I'm assuming no one reads my blog anymore. I have so many secrets here that i never dared to say to anyone face-to-face /: 

Hmmmm i wonder if this is getting too long. 

P.P.S

If any of the Aviary members DID read this for some reason (idk why you're still visiting my blog i don't even tell anyone that i'm still using my blog occasionally), i'm seriously damn sorry. Esp if Claire or Manqin reads this. I don't mean to make y'all sound like mean people, i seriously don't. You guys aren't mean; it's normal to feel upset when someone lies to you, i know. I just needed to rant somewhere, and i feel like if i had said this to someone, things would be so complicated..please don't hate me for this okay if you really read this just talk to me i'll cry to y'all about it or something just don't hate on me silently and torture me ): I'm so so so sorry i love you guys every single one of you in Aviary, really. 

I hope and pray that i won't regret posting this online..i hope no one accidentally highlights this and realises there's this hidden post /: looks so suspicious hahaha but i'll take my chances i guess. 
Okay la bye hahahahaha hope i'll blog something real again soon!