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Hi there. The name's CHERYL. Was in Pasir Ris Primary, St. Hilda's Secondary and Temasek Polytechnic's Veterinary Technology, currently in Nanyang Technological University's Biological Sciences. A '96 baby getting older every year on 26th May. Started this blog when i was Primary 5, and i refuse to delete it cos it holds all my memories, both good and bad. (: |
Such a dead blog /:
Monday, 10 March 2014 @ 00:57
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When a clique splits up because of different schools/classes, is it natural for sub-groups to form? I think it is, even though i kinda hate it..i don't know, i hate it yet i like it..
Currently, Aviary's being split into the JC people (including Sab i guess), NP/NYP people, and TP people. Of course, i'm under the TP people. I don't know how it happened, but it just became like that.
JC: Sam, Sophie, Yanhui, Sab
NP/NYP: San, Gordon, Dio
TP: Claire, Manqin, Me.
-FILLS UP GAPS TO MAKE BLOG POST LONGER-
Manqin and Claire says it's normal for our clique to split up like that, because it's easier to arrange gatherings when we're in the same school. I guess i have to agree, cos it does makes sense, but on the other hand i feel terrible when Aviary becomes like that. Leaving the JC people aside (because they're the more sui bian people plus they're the ones who have a larger holiday difference than the rest of us), i feel like us TP people are distancing ourselves from the NP/NYP people deliberately..
It alll started with Sandra's (possible) lie to a few of us, which i shall not talk about. Obviously we wouldn't' feel too happy about it, and Manqin and Claire felt the most angry/upset about it (i guess). Dio was kinda puzzled as well, but she's probably over it long ago. What about me? Honestly, i probably had let go of it a long time ago too, but because Manqin and Claire are still harping on it, i naturally still have that "betrayed" feeling inside at times. I'm not blaming Manqin and Claire for this, please don't misunderstand, but i feel like..we should all just let it go. It's been so long already - at least half a year has passed, if i'm not wrong.
My blog's so dead and lifeless i feel like i should just post something crazy like this once in a while so that it looks more colourful hahahahaha
Idk but ever since then, Manqin and Claire have been getting frustrated at Aviary (in a way) pretty easily..like when we're trying to plan an Aviary outing and no one replies, they start ranting in the TP chat like "Next time i'm not gonna suggest _____ anymore" and stuff like that. It's true that people don't really reply luh, i know it's understandable to get frustrated, but still...sometimes when the other people say something, they wouldn't respond either, so isn't it the same thing..?
Manqin criticizes almost every single photo Sandra posts on Instagram.
"I see her say she poor i feel angry."
"She look like posing for advertisement."
"She and her boyfriend ah, must maintain abit."
"See, she's the kind who takes photos and puts some deep quote as the caption."
Hello to anyone (that i know) who still reads my blog! It's 7 years old this 2014 hehehe omg :D
It's like, the lying incident has caused her to hate Sandra for eternity. I just feel kinda frustrated and bad for Sandra at the same time whenever Manqin does that. I mean, shouldn't you just let it be? Let the user post whatever she wants, right..? If you don't like it, don't tap the like button. If you do, then give it a like if you want. Isn't that how Instagram's supposed to be?
Maybe i'm just being too sensitive again. Maybe i shouldn't bother. But what i'm afraid is that Aviary would split up for real because of such stuff. I don't want Aviary to split up like that. I've already experienced Chenting and Shane quarrelling and Shara and QQ having tension between each other, and in both cases i was the one in between. I hated being in that postition cos no matter what you do, you must think so carefully in case you hurt either of their feelings. So i don't want Aviary to encounter such a problem as well.
Most of the times, the three of us would hang out together. Even recently, we went to watch Pompeii together. During the time of our gathering, i wouldn't really feel guilty for not asking the rest and stuff. The most i'd think of is just to invite Dio, cos Dio's like the next closest to us compared to the rest. But i wouldn't think of asking the NP/NYP people. But then when the NP/NYP people post a photo of Instagram showing that THEY had a gathering together without us knowing, i feel left out. Yes, i feel left out.
You must be thinking, wtf Cheryl you're doing what you don't want others to do and now you're feeling upset over it? I KNOW, i feel so stupid too /: Such irony, right? Sigh. I don't know, it just feels so complicated. Aviary used to buy a shared present amongst ALL of us to another Aviary member. But now, it's always the TP people sharing a gift, and then idk about the rest of them. Dio would be like "walao bojio sia!!" But ite we still buy the gift amongst the three of us. And then when it's either of our birthday, two of us would buy a gift for that one of us. It's like we're no longer a part of Aviary, we're just the TP people..
Is this being too crazy? hahahahaha idk oh well it's not like i'm gonna do this every single post so ohwell WHATEVER :b
But right now, i feel like if i ask Manqin and Claire to stop hating on Sandra, it wouldn't work. I get this feeling like i'd get ostracized by the two of them if i show that i've forgiven Sandra..i know, it sounds crazy to think Manqin and Claire would ever do that, but i just can't help it... What if it DOES happen? I'd feel really lonely, because the NP/NYP people would be "too far", the JC people have different holidays and stuff, and then the TP people would just consist of Manqin and Claire.
Idk now it sounds too crazy to happen. But stilll. Ahhhhhhhh i don't knowwwwww. I guess i'd try my luck someday soon regarding the Sandra thing. As in to tell them to just let it go. I hope the worst scenario that i've thought about wouldn't come true though. I won't be able to take it i swear. I'd probably just break down or go berserk or something.
P.S
I'm assuming no one reads my blog anymore. I have so many secrets here that i never dared to say to anyone face-to-face /:
Hmmmm i wonder if this is getting too long.
P.P.S
If any of the Aviary members DID read this for some reason (idk why you're still visiting my blog i don't even tell anyone that i'm still using my blog occasionally), i'm seriously damn sorry. Esp if Claire or Manqin reads this. I don't mean to make y'all sound like mean people, i seriously don't. You guys aren't mean; it's normal to feel upset when someone lies to you, i know. I just needed to rant somewhere, and i feel like if i had said this to someone, things would be so complicated..please don't hate me for this okay if you really read this just talk to me i'll cry to y'all about it or something just don't hate on me silently and torture me ): I'm so so so sorry i love you guys every single one of you in Aviary, really.
I hope and pray that i won't regret posting this online..i hope no one accidentally highlights this and realises there's this hidden post /: looks so suspicious hahaha but i'll take my chances i guess.
Okay la bye hahahahaha hope i'll blog something real again soon!
Okay la bye hahahahaha hope i'll blog something real again soon!