10:54 PM
Monday, 12 March, 2012
Was looking at the whole list of archives. And i realised, i have been blogging since 2008! And i also realised, i blogged at least once a month. Cos there is an archive for every single month since i started this blog! :D
Yaaaaay!
Okay i don't see any reason why i should be celebrating.
Well anyway. Prelim 1 is in 6 weeks' time. I feel panicky, but i really don't feel like mugging . It just feels too early. I know if i don't start soon i'll just flunk my prelims, but i just can't motivate myself to start studying. And its studying from scratch, which is worse. Its not like common test, whereby you just study certain chapters of a subject.
What am i saying. Obviously prelims can't be compared with common tests omgosh -_-
Jiawei said he's gonna start studying tomorrow onwards. Maybe i should do the same. IF i cann get myself to ._. I have to study, do homework, AND housework. Will i be able to cope?
Or will i just die there?
I don't know. Guess i'll just have to give it a shot.
11:54 AM
Sunday, 19 February, 2012
Just came home from the airport..
Kakak just left. She's leaving for good, probably only coming back after two years when my bro goes for NS.
I was so upset, i cried in the airport. :'( She cried too..
Actually ever since Janurary (when she first said that she was gonna leave), i've been silently crying. Everytime i thought of her leaving, tears would start welling up in my eyes. But i'd control. I'd either control, or just go toilet and wash my face.
Only yesterday night, when i got into bed, and saw her lying down (she wasn't asleep yet), i thought, this would be the last time she's gonna sleep beside me..then i started crying again. She heard my loud sniffs, and knew i was crying. While trying to comfort me, she herself cried.
Sigh, 16 years of taking care of me, taking care of the family, and now she's leaving. Of course i'd cry. She's like a second mummy to me.
Tbh, i'm starting to tear up while typing this alr haha.
Just hope i wouldn't randomly think of her during school hours and start breaking down in school. Gonna be really embarrassing...I need to constantly do stuffs to get those thoughts out of my mind.
2 years...i will wait for you Kakak. :') Must keep in contact, okay? (:
I love you <3
10:29 PM
Wednesday, 15 February, 2012
Nooooooooo Gordon deleted his blog ): Now the only existing Aviary blog is mine, sigh.
#foreveralone
1:48 PM
Sunday, 5 February, 2012
Today's the 5th of February. 3 years ago, i was just this lil kid who had no one else in her mind except -bleep- . It started off so well, but then ended soon on 23rd April. However, this lil kid didn't give up. This lil kid still feels the same now. But -bleep- doesn't even know. -bleep- even ignores this lil kid.
Sigh i don't understand why this can go on for so long. I don't even know when it'll end. It will, for sure, but i just don't know when. And i know it would end for sure, cos its just one-sided. And i'm 99% sure -bleep- doesn't feel the same way i do. Cos if he feels the same way i do, he wouldn't have ignored me. Oh well.
On a brighter note, its International Kissing Nutella Day!(: okay actually its International Kissing Day and World Nutella Day , but i thought putting them together would be kinda funny. So yeah happy both celebrations everyone!
Now on a sad note again.. School's giving us remedials all at one go. Which means we're gonna stay back almost everyday. Lets see...
Monday - English.
Tuesday - Choir.
Wednesday - Chinese.
Thursday - Elect Geog and SS(luckily i'm not down for this cos Mrs Tan's good enough), alternating Thursdays.
Friday - Choir.
I forgot where Science remedial fits in, oops.
See how great Sec 4 life is? Juniors out there, don't mock me. Cos you'll be experience all these someday.
Still looking for a female Amath private tutor. Hopefully can find one.
P.S 2 weeks till my kakak leaves me... Sigh :'(
6:46 PM
Saturday, 28 January, 2012
Decided to bleep out his name from the previous posts, in case my parents happen to come across my blog.
Idk how they'd ever come across it, but oh well, better safe than sorry right?
Anything can happen. Just like how someone blog-hopped and saw everything, oh gosh. Luckily it wasn't my parents or bro .
7:45 PM
Friday, 27 January, 2012
Argh i just realised my new blogskin doesn't work on the Blogger app on my phone ): i can't scroll down in the box containing all the stuff, i can only scroll down the entire page /:
Oh well..
P.S
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZHUOJINGGGGGG! <3 You're officially 16 YAY! Must meet up soon okayokay? :D Even though i know you wouldn't be seeing this. /:
10:34 PM
Wednesday, 25 January, 2012
Decided to update the links section of my blog. Whichever person deleted their blog, i'd remove the link. Whoever relinked, i'll relink. Whoever made their blog private :( , i'd still put the link there. Even if they don't use their blogs anymore but it still exists, i'll keep the link. So lets see how many have deleted their blogs...
Pasirians: From 29 links, i've reduced them to...16.
Hildans: From 22 links, i've reduced them to...16 also. O:
Family/Other friends: From 7 links, i've reduced them to...4.
Finally, Others/Shared Blogs: From 8 links, i've reduced them to...4 also.
Even among the 16,16,4 and 4 (wow all repeated numbers), less than 5 blogs are still alive.
Conclusion: Blogger, overall, isn't alive anymore.
So yeah bye. (:
P.S
你们都知道了，干吗不讲一声！): 害到我一直觉得那么内疚..
