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Hi there. The name's CHERYL. Was in Pasir Ris Primary, St. Hilda's Secondary and Temasek Polytechnic's Veterinary Technology, currently in Nanyang Technological University's Biological Sciences. A '96 baby getting older every year on 26th May. Started this blog when i was Primary 5, and i refuse to delete it cos it holds all my memories, both good and bad. (: |
Hildan Torch.
Sunday, 15 January 2012 @ 17:11
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In my mind, i was wondering, who will be the one in front of me, the one whom i'll be following their footsteps?
Then Mr Lian read: "Badminton, Hockey, Volleyball boys, Hildan Chorale..."
Oh. Shit.
Those were the only words in my mind back then, i remember. I'm standing behind -bleep-! -BLEEP- !
I didn't know if it was a good thing or not. One part of me was jumping for joy, being able to be so close to someone i loved since Sec 1 (kinda). But another part of me was all upset. Why did i have to stand behind him? I'm trying so so hard to forget him, and this had to be such a perfect chance to make me fall in love with him all over again. Its not that we'd talk, but to be honest, standing behind him and watching him, would kinda make me go crazy already. I was hoping i wouldn't see him so often anymore, so i could slowly forget him. But i just had to be put behind him. Oh well. /:
So yeah, just as i predicted, we never exchanged any words. But i knew, deep down, i was hoping he'd talk to me. Not to ask for something, but to talk to me casually like a friend. We've never done that since Sec1..
Its okay, i told myself. Just love him silently like you have been doing since Sec1.
So everything went well, i didn't make a fool of myself in front of him and stuff on that day itself. Flagbearing was for CCA councillors, so me being the only non-CCA councillor there was pretty pathetic. But i had Sam, so i was contented. Anyw Sam said she didn't really have friends in the council too, and my presence was great for her too. (:
Oh and just before we marched in, Sam actually told me, "you still like -bleep- right!!"
Ohmygah. How did she know?! No one knows! ): i asked her how she knew, she said she just knew. She could feel it, or something like that. Oh gosh. I thought everyone thought i liked -rawr- .
So i guess she's the only one who knows the truth.
During our break after the entering of the CCA colours (we only had to march in and march out at the end), i sat opposite Sam and watched her gobble down her dinner. Then she told me to turn around and look at the sky, cos it was beautiful. I turned and looked. Then i realised -bleep- was sitting right at a spot such that looking at the sky was also looking straight at him. I turned back, pretending nothing happened, and just agreed that the sky looked beautiful. Then Sam started giggling, and it was then i realised she actually did that on purpose. ): then she kept asking me to turn back and look again, but i refused cos i knew she was teasin me. Then she was like, "hahahahahahaha why your face so red!" ))): so mean aiyo.
After Hildan Torch, we waited for our parents together. Then , i asked her if i was being annoying by holding on to him for four years. She said no la. That was kinda comforting i guess? /: i asked her if he knows that i still like him. She said, "i don't think so?" okay, even more comforting.
So yeap thats it about my little experience of this year's Hildan Torch. I'm happy actually. I liked watching him from behind. I'm contented. (:
Ohhhhh! One more thing. Last Tuesday was the CCA Colours presentation too. Shane had to announce the awards stuff, so again i had to stand in for her. No, i wasn't standing beside -bleep-. Not so lucky haha.
It was unfortunate. I stood too long and didn't wriggle my toes (to allow blood flow), so i felt really dizzy after. I couldn' t even stand anymore, so i told Shane and she 扶 me to the benches which they set up for the photo-taking. I was actually alr sick to begin with, i was sick since Friday. In the end i was brought to the P.E room. At that time, all i could think of was, did -bleep- see me like that? If he did, was he concerned about me? when Shane came in, i asked her, "were everyone asking about me?" She said, "yeah didn't you hear the noise they made outside?" but that wasn't what i wanted to hear. I wanted her to say something like, "yeah, especially -bleep- ! He kept asking what happened and if you were fine." ah, what was i thinking. Shane doesn't know i still love him so much. And why would he bother? He probably thought nothing of it. i was then brought to the sick bay. I lay there until 9.15am before going back to class. The whole time i was there i kept thinking of him. If only he could come visit me, i wished. But nah, that just remained as a wish that never came true.
Now that all the events are over, i guess i won't get to see him and be so close to him anymore. Sigh.
P.S
Simple Plan is in Singapore already!! Their concert's tonight, which would be a great thing if i could go. Now i just feel disappointed. ): sigh, shall just wait for their vlog on their trip to Singapore then.
P.P.S
What a long blog post. Didn't realise it was this long. O: