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Hi there. The name's CHERYL. Was in Pasir Ris Primary, St. Hilda's Secondary and Temasek Polytechnic's Veterinary Technology, currently in Nanyang Technological University's Biological Sciences. A '96 baby getting older every year on 26th May. Started this blog when i was Primary 5, and i refuse to delete it cos it holds all my memories, both good and bad. (: |
Life sucks.
Sunday, 8 August 2010 @ 13:57
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People can play comp for the whole day, and score SUPERDUPER well.
Or maybe just like my bro - He plays comp the whole day, and his results come back surprisingly well. WHY ?
Why can people slack and get good results, while i can't? Its unfair, its really unfair..
I can't excel in piano, i can't excel in Taekwando, i can't excel in skating, i can't excel in swimming.I just quit after awhile.
I quit Taekwando cos i didn't have time anymore. I already achieved poom belt so yeah thats it. Piano. I acheived Grade5. Quit cos i didn't have time as well. Then lost interest. I just couldn't do well. I just like piano because of the nice songs. But why can't i just play them well??
Skating. Skating is fun . I had no proper lessons. I just like to skate around. WITH FRIENDS. And because no one has time to skate, i neglected my skates. I'm sorry, for wasting your money.
Swimming? I never had any interest in it. You kept reminding me that its important. I tried to make myself think that way too, but i'm sorry.. I just don't have such stamina to swim laps and learn more. I just don't have the interest.
Because of all those, I am now having doubts on trying out new stuffs. Playing the guitar, for an example. I'm worried that i'll lose interest and your money will be wasted yet again.
Maybe, maybe i have to force myself to swim.. Just to be able to go sailing with Jeremiah, Sam, and the others.. Just to be able to go Wild Wild Wet... Other water activites.... Because now, you're disallowing me from going near water.
I have never continued anything i liked since young, you say? No, you're wrong. I liked singing and look, now i'm still in Choir . I never stopped singing. Or maybe you just think that singing is nothing. Its not nothing . Its just the same as swimming, skating, or taekwando. Its an interest.
Or maybe i'm just too dumb.. You compare me with Triston and Austin, but have you forgotten that i'm not them? I am VERY different from them. I can't be like them, sporty children. They have the stamina, I don't. Its unfair for you to compare me with them. They can run, play table tennis, badminton, swim, play pool, WOW. WOWWWW. I am SO impressed.
But MUST i be like them? Why can't i just stick to my own stuffs? Must I be like them, then you'll be happy ?
Must i give up everything, my computer, my handphone..? And then just mug all day and night? And then I can come back with satisfying results?
I think that even if i give up all those, i won't come back with good results.. I'm just too stupid.. I can't sustain good results...
Primary one to three , i sustained Band1 for all subjects. I dropped tremendously after that. And Primary 6, the major exam came. PSLE. And, in the top class, i achieved just a pathetic 232 . I even did worse than those in the forth class.
Sec1 . I did fairly well. Boon Soon Neo Award. wow.
Sec2? Failing Geog, which i had A1 for sec 1. History as well. English? I topped the class for the compre section in Sec1. Sec2? Last in class.
Do you know how hard is it to accept that? From top, to LAST.
And you just blame it all on me using computer and handphone.
You were angry that i exceeded the outgoing calls. So i stopped. and now you're scolding me for smses. FREE SMSES. Why do you even give me unlimited smses when you're limiting me?
Do you really believe that if i give up my computer and handphone, i will do well?
Do you know that i come home everyday just a few minutes earlier than you do?
Do you know that I only use the comp at night, most of the times just after i finish the SHITLOAD of homework per day? And you just scold me for overshooting the 10pm rule by a little. I finish my homework at 10pm, and i just wanna use for a little while. And now you're threatening me by cutting off the internet line by 10pm.
DO YOU KNOW, that most of the time i end by 10.30pm, then go to bed? And you're saying i use till 11+ , 12+ ? How will you know? you're not even in the same room as me. The person using late at night isn't me okay, its Kakak . And she uses the comp at night because she wants to watch her indonesian show which is at night.
Must i prove to you that computer and handphone isn't affecting my studies, by mugging all day, then coming back with the same results?
Must i suffer all those, then you'll believe me, dad?